i have lotsa thoughts running in my head at this moment of time, all the thoughts which i was affected emosionally...the times i was backstabbed again and again by the people i trusted most... hurm, but it doesn't even matter now - i've forgived all those people, but why is the reason it has been playing again and again... maybe because i've forgiven but not forgotten the stuff they did to me. How can i possibly forget, the pain, dissapointment, the anger... revenge would have healed all at once. But NO, i know i'm a better person from who they are... what difference will it make between me and them if i choose to repay them with the same amount of pain i felt........ hoping for time to heal all this emo thoughts... haih........